M won’t give up

I haven’t seen much of M lately. I got a bit tired because we were always doing the same thing in and out of bed and my attempts to make things different didn’t really work.

Besides, lately I was noticing he was slowly getting more attached, and that’s something I don’t want. He’s a nice guy but I don’t feel anything more for him.

So since New Year we had only met once. On the first occasion he lured me to his new flat with the offer of a massage (for which he is fully qualified), which he didn’t give and then invited himself to my place to stay over.

Then recently he told me he wanted to have dinner with me (in Bella Italia like every time). So after a couple of weeks I agreed to meet him on a Sunday evening. But I told him we’d just have dinner and we wouldn’t be going home together. He agreed, well, he said he did…

We had dinner and during the dinner he mentioned he was still sometimes in touch with the guy he had been seeing at the same time as me when we first met. M told me he had gone back to study, he didn’t quite like the way he approached his future and that’s why he had stopped seeing him. Then he told me how he was often feeling lonely and that maybe he could try with him again.

But in his usual way he wasn’t direct at all and I had to guess most of it. I got the impression he was sort of looking for my agreement, which he got. I mean, why wouldn’t I? I hardly see him?

At the end of the dinner I asked him whether he wanted dessert; his answer was yes, but at home… I told him that wasn’t going to happen, but he wouldn’t give up.

While we were walking to the tube station he kept insisting and I kept saying no. I told him he should find someone but he didn’t see it so obvious. And the conversation went in circles until inside the station we had to take different ways. After his last please we parted separately.