I’ve been back for over a week from my second trip to Asia. I had a great time in Singapore and Malaysia and even got my holiday extended by 4 days. Mind you, I had to be a little creative with the truth and told them I’d lost my passport… that did the trick!
As you’ll know I was going to meet D for most of the trip but I had also been chatting with a few other people I could meet, mostly in Singapore. That’s something D was aware of and was fine with it, but the week before he asked me to do that only after returning from Malaysia. I agreed since he was the only person I was really keen to meet.
When we were back in Singapore one day I felt there wasn’t much planned I thought I’d take the chance to see a couple of people. One was one guy I had been chatting with for quite a while and just wanted to have a coffee with him. The other one was for fun after we near missed each other on my last trip to Bangkok. The thing is I wasn’t really that keen, I was just acting out of inertia.
But when I told D I managed to upset him, and I really regret that. We had a wonderful time together and the last thing I wanted to do was upsetting him. Especially for doing something for the sake of it, my old fear of missing the chance of doing something. I made an error of judgement and I am sorry for that.
On his blog he had written we were getting on surprisingly well, and that maybe I was just a very tolerant person. I think we did get on very well, but I am also a very tolerant person, and sometimes I expect people around me to be equally flexible.
In the end I just met the first guy for a coffee and didn’t even contact the other one, I was really not in the mood any more. Later that evening I met D again for but he mostly remained silent, it was hard to get him to tell me his feelings and discuss the whole situation. I always prefer talking about things even though you may end up hearing things you don’t like. Needless to say that night I slept on my own, and I really missed him.
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